今晚，我就用华语。

现在包围着我地， 是沉默的夜晚：一片黑暗，应该是代表危险。。。却让我觉得无限的安全，平静。
睡得很少的我，非常清醒。

我是为什么那么相信朋友，在乎他们的举动呢? 我偶尔认为自己很傻。。。 但是同时。。。

。。。同时我太了解自己了！ 同胞就是同胞：无论他们犯了什么错误，我仍然有那个必要去信任他们，支持他们，照顾他们。
博爱吗？我一点都不知晓。。。只懂心里最诚恳地愿望，是能看到大家开心。就这样。

乌黑的夜晚， 带着温柔的微风，带着草原的芬芳，嗅觉就这么一灵。。。
领着我，飘进了另一个境界。

我要的和平，或许只是离谱而单纯的愿望，永远都得不到。
但我还是会继续奋斗，反抗，为我所珍惜的大家，争取幸福。

Today it's been pretty rainy and cool.

It reminds me of days in my childhood, when I studied in a private and tiny outfit called Sunbird. The school was a bungalow in Loyang, I distinctly remember its red motif outside the house, and a small garden, with a Tyco playground.

On days like this we would sit on the steps near the garden, buzzing with the multitude of insect voices in the humid afternoons, the smell of rain hanging low in the air. When it rained, the whole house would be filled with a deep and mysterious darkness, and we would run upstairs, screaming into the rooms filled with children's encyclopedias and toys.

We would watch Scooby Doo on the old big TV set in the evenings, waiting for our parents to come pick us up.

I smell the post-rain air: that sweet, cool scent that breezes in and fades, evanescent.
Somehow, it smells of my childhood.

Wynne fell asleep with the PS controls in her hand last nite! I was talking with a course mate from SMU on MSN last night, and walked over because the FF7 music went on for way too long. No gamer stays navigating the skies with an airship for that long.
She's 13, and she is already really beautiful, with some kind of mature weariness edging her beguiling innocence. She's always talking ruff, but then...

Curled up on the pillow
in your loveable way
Like a blue prawn
hugging a rock
That sweet expression
upon your face
as you meander
the field of dreams.

Despite myself,
I smile.
If I had one blessing,
you would be it.

My angels.
I often feel tired, cynical and the edge of meaness wants to grab the better part of me and run off with it. But when I see them sleeping, hugging together after all their fighting in the day... all pretense and anger falls away.